"I wish someone would have told me that anxiety is natural and will likely develop as I searched for answers to what was going on with my body."When you get sick, you go in to see your doctor when things don’t improve after a specific amount of time. Everyone is different, some people will wait a couple days while others wait a week (or longer) before going in to see their doctor. And that’s fine, no matter where you fall on the timeline. When you go into the doctors to explain what’s going on and they cannot give you a direct answer on why it’s happening, that's when anxiety slowly starts to infiltrate your mind. My endometriosis journey started with what my first doctor suspected as a “newly formed allergy from work, which caused a vasovagal syncope reaction”. After a few days away from work, where the suspected allergy trigger was, it was clear that wasn’t my problem because not only was I still having ongoing symptoms, they were progressing. Naturally, I went back to my doctor, and reported how my symptoms were getting worse and that I didn’t think it was an environment related issue, but something was going wrong inside my body. That’s when the horrible process started – countless tests, labs and image scans – and needing to wait so long for each one before you could progress to another. This is where anxiety comes into play and sets its roots. Imagine your body acting completely different, out of the blue on one random day, and your doctor cannot find out what’s wrong with you, despite the symptoms you present and how long they have been going on. You rely on your doctor to have answers and if they don’t, they will guide you to them, but sometimes even doctors don’t know where to turn and they don’t have time to comfort you as your frustration and fear builds over time. The longer I went without answers, the longer I couldn’t start any treatments or try to create a plan to manage my pain/symptoms because we didn’t know the actual cause. My body and mind started to panic and included some of these thoughts, on the hour at times:
All of this is your body reacting to the unknown – no answers create a lot of worries – but it’s natural, and it’s completely normal! Our brain is very logical, it wants to understand why the body is acting out, it wants to rationalize the fear, worries, pain and symptoms, but it cannot do any of that without answers. And everyone around you tries to tell you:
We all know our individual bodies. We have lived in them our whole lives, when we say something is wrong, doctors need to believe us, regardless of what tests say. Tests miss stuff all the time and we still don't have tests developed to positively prove some diseases are present yet. And if you’re reading this and find yourself in this situation, please know I do not think you’re crazy and I believe you. I know it’s not all in your head and I have been where you are right now. It sucks, and I’m sorry that you must go through it, but I know you will fight to be heard and demand answers, even if that means it will take months or years. Do not ever give up because you know your body – better than any doctor or test. Note: I am not a doctor or therapist or anything in between. I am simply sharing how my personal anxiety started and why I feel it got worse. It is not uncommon to develop anxiety when experiencing unknown health problems.
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